My lose of control happened Friday afternoon. It wasn't a bad thing. I gave up the desire to control situations that God needed me to let go of so He could fix them. I let go of a pattern of thinking that wasn't getting me anywhere and an ideal of what should be instead of accepting what is. What was it you ask?
A need for a perfect marriage, a perfect spouse, a perfect life. I write about marriage all the time. The most important thing I tell my readers is that marriage is not perfect. It is the idea of perfectionism and fixing flaws that will cause you to miss out on the qualities you fell in love with, in the first place. It was not a desire to create the perfect marriage, so much as it was a desire to improve it beyond what it was capable of being.
Your marriage is capable of being great. It is not capable of being forced into a picture perfect idea. That's what stumps a lot of people. Picture perfect does not exist. A lop sided marriage can only balance for so long. By this, I mean if you are working harder than your spouse at saving the marriage, protecting, or maintaining it, you are going to get burned out and fed up.
I lose control so that God could take over. I gave up the idea of fixing and started appreciating. My books aren't designed to fix all of your problems. They are designed to encourage you to seek God and help you learn tools that can get you on the path of restoration, maintenance, and prosperity.
My losing control was an outward sign of an inward struggle. I lost control so that God could take the wheel. And don't you know that it is working. My loss of control is putting me back into a submissive role and opening doors of blessings that go beyond my expectations and dreams. New opportunities are coming because I am not in control and let go of what I could not change.