Have you ever woken up to find that the littlest thing irritates you? You try to move past it, find the good in things, but something on the inside keeps your mind going to negative thoughts. If not caught early, it can lead to a cloud of funk that is hard to pull out of. Ever go through the day and feel like you want to cry, but don't know why. Even if you do cry, you can't control the tears. It's not from being ungrateful. For me, it's a state of confusion. A sign that something inside is making you react to the outside in a way that releases mixed emotions that you cannot describe.
I say that my unsatisfaction with satisfaction is unsettling in part due to hormones b/c I am 25 weeks pregnant. If you've been there, you know. But I also know that it is more than just hormonal changes. It is me loosing touch with what I need the most. A hug. A hug for me represents the presence of God dwelling within my spirit, my mind, my body, and my heart. I, like many of you, go through phases in which life becomes so busy that I shift focus from eternal to physical needs. It's hard to say when it starts, but once I realize it, I feel trapped. The only way to turn my unsatisfaction with satisfaction into a satisfying praise is to cry out to God for help. To ask for forgiveness and to repent for my ways. It's not that I disconnect completely with my Father, but I have a hard time hearing Him through the noise in my head. I know I will get back to a place of never ending blessings and true blue skies. Until then I have to work on forgiving myself and reframe my thoughts so that they focus on God and not man. Want to know how?
That's for the next blog. Leave a comment below if you are interested in turning your unsatisfaction with satisfaction into satisfactory praise. Thanks for reading