A part of me wanted to give up and just leave everything behind. Another part of me (my spiritual side) felt convicted and needed more time to sort things out. It's amazing how 1 silent moment or 1 conversation can give you so much clarity. Sometimes you need to talk it out in order to figure it out. And while I didn't get a clear resolution from the conversation with my friend, it did help me to continue talking about my feelings and find my truth.
The truth of the matter is that, the problems I tried to bear and tried to figure out were already being worked out for me. Some of you may know the saying "the battle is not yours, it's the Lord." It's also a line in a Yolanda Adams song. It is a very true statement. I spent countless hours worrying about something that has not happened and contemplating a decision that I did not need to make. I'm exhausted just thinking about that.
God was already working things out for me, but I needed to hear Him say it. I also needed to realize that if I'm going to have faith, I have to use it all the time. Faith isn't a fancy scarf that you put on when it's cold or because you want to be fashionable. Faith is like your skin, it never goes out of style and it is always with you.
So in conclusion (lame ending), I want to encourage you to talk about your problems. Don't hold them in because the bitterness of misery does not taste well. I pray that you have at least one person who will listen to you without trying to fix you. I'm so grateful for my friends because they are always willing to let me vent my frustrations and get things off my chest. I've learned that the more time you spend communicating with yourself, God, and others, the more peace you will have. This is not to say you have to spill your guts 24/7, but to know that somethings need to be said. Talking could save your life. #TryIt